Thursday, October 29, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
meeting him i'm going to ask him for sure
do you have anything to tell me?
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
i know babe you are buzy.
it is just that it make me feel like i'm not with you i know i love you.
you have so much event going on that you are not paying any attention to me.
you know i don't mind that you are buzy and things.
but at least reply my msg.
i feel like you don't want me anymore when you get so buzy like you rather lose me to do all the events and stuff.
but i don't know how you really feel now.
and i'm sorry everytime i think about it i really feel like shedding some tears.
i love you so much nothing in this world can replace you.
only you can stop me from loving you.
i don't want to be hanging on a string.
like i've said i want to know the truth not beautiful things.
when you get so buzy the only person i can turn to talk to will be iskanda.
he make me feel like how you make me feel... but not 100% like how you make me feel.
i'm sorry babe if i might seem like to be cheating on you but i'm not i just need you now. really need to be by your side now. iskanda is like my big brother. he is nice and charming like my babe that's why i'm having this crush on him. JEFFEREY I NEED YOU NOW LIKE NOW... i cannt take it i must talk to you about you being so buzy like you want to be with me like as if you are toying me. just hope you are not doing this coz i know it would be very heartbreaking..
Goodnight to my love Jefferey, Goodnight to my charming friend iskanda..
Saturday, October 17, 2009
but he is always buzy. but i don't mind that he is limted to meet me like once a week.
well what to say he is going to grad soon.
just hope he doing well.
i am the type of person that will stick to one.
just don't crush me.
and i know he wont do so.
but i still think the word love is not real
it more like temptation and pleasure.
and for sure i know my tolerance level for both is low.
to low...
at work 0_0 that guy just to hot for me...
his smile is so... i don't know how to describe it
and the way he talk. soothing like so called an angle 0_0"
the only thing is he is 30 yrs old... SO OLD...
think again i will stick to jeff. he make me happy when ever i'm around him.
i won't know what tht fiz is like. jeff is the best. fit for me... i still think its too fast to get married.
plus our one mth ani will be 25th this mth?
coz last mth i meet him on the 25th... ^^
so long i think i'll start to save. so by then i can get something for him ^^ hope he remember it. i don't want to be the only one to do this.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
i don't know what i'm feeling
it make me really irritated
but... i love this feeling
ever since i'm with jefferey he make me really happy
i don't know how to thank him
he make me so happy that i wish i can be with him everyday
how i wish my parents can be understanding and let me be who i am
i want to be able to voice out
the angle wings
i want to get it done on my back
it mean a lot to me
but i'm born in the family that fall under the group muslim
some time i feel like being alone
but i really pity my mum i do love her i don't know what i'll do with out her
she is everything to me no one can replace my mother she is the best even how much she nags how much i find it noisy she is the best mom in the world. i still think i'm lucky to have such a mum.
but if i do the tattoo i will dissapoint my mum so much.
i don't wish to do that.
i'm very confused with my life now if i continue with my dreams to work with qatar airways i have to leave jefferey i don't want that and if i continue to love him i can't persue my dreams and let my mum leave a luxuary life...
my mum is the most important person in my life if she is not here i don't know what to do...
i don't care about anyone else in my family only my mum...
sometimes i feel like i'm in my own world because i'm always working and schooling i don't know what to do i said i want to be able to be in poly but see what i'm doing with my life now?
i must get into poly even if i have to waste one more year to retake a nitec course.
TP is my choice.
but who know..
hmm... i bet i'm trying to be able to hold onto myself... you seem so happy without me and i know i am not trying to take revenge or anything... i'm going to let it be. let karma hits you back. i shall keep it to myself.
kenzo and iska... nice caring and. so caring!!! haha ^^
dozing off at
Sunday, October 25, 2009
i swear i got no idea what i'm thinking now... jeff really not msging me anymore... what's up and i'm starting to like the way he treat me... i think if he want to bring it i will bring it...
i'm now so not in love with you jeff i really wanna change all the things in facebook uh you really think i'm a touch and go thing is it? i swear iskandar is much much better then you even tho he is 30yrs old okay
couple of pictures of me and iskandar we went vivo yesterday after work...
dozing off at
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
at last its wed... my day off... i want to relex and chill!! xD super boring i'm sure i'm going out later staying at home? no way... bloody shit now i need to use what phone ahhh?? my charger the double pin is gone =.= shit my little brother that stupid black idiot! bitch shitShit!!! -_-...
meeting him i'm going to ask him for sure
do you have anything to tell me?
dozing off at
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
dear Emmanuel Jefferey Loh,
i know babe you are buzy.
it is just that it make me feel like i'm not with you i know i love you.
you have so much event going on that you are not paying any attention to me.
you know i don't mind that you are buzy and things.
but at least reply my msg.
i feel like you don't want me anymore when you get so buzy like you rather lose me to do all the events and stuff.
but i don't know how you really feel now.
and i'm sorry everytime i think about it i really feel like shedding some tears.
i love you so much nothing in this world can replace you.
only you can stop me from loving you.
i don't want to be hanging on a string.
like i've said i want to know the truth not beautiful things.
when you get so buzy the only person i can turn to talk to will be iskanda.
he make me feel like how you make me feel... but not 100% like how you make me feel.
i'm sorry babe if i might seem like to be cheating on you but i'm not i just need you now. really need to be by your side now. iskanda is like my big brother. he is nice and charming like my babe that's why i'm having this crush on him. JEFFEREY I NEED YOU NOW LIKE NOW... i cannt take it i must talk to you about you being so buzy like you want to be with me like as if you are toying me. just hope you are not doing this coz i know it would be very heartbreaking..
Goodnight to my love Jefferey, Goodnight to my charming friend iskanda..
dozing off at
Saturday, October 17, 2009
it just seem like i need more and more from him.
but he is always buzy. but i don't mind that he is limted to meet me like once a week.
well what to say he is going to grad soon.
just hope he doing well.
i am the type of person that will stick to one.
just don't crush me.
and i know he wont do so.
but i still think the word love is not real
it more like temptation and pleasure.
and for sure i know my tolerance level for both is low.
to low...
at work 0_0 that guy just to hot for me...
his smile is so... i don't know how to describe it
and the way he talk. soothing like so called an angle 0_0"
the only thing is he is 30 yrs old... SO OLD...
think again i will stick to jeff. he make me happy when ever i'm around him.
i won't know what tht fiz is like. jeff is the best. fit for me... i still think its too fast to get married.
plus our one mth ani will be 25th this mth?
coz last mth i meet him on the 25th... ^^
so long i think i'll start to save. so by then i can get something for him ^^ hope he remember it. i don't want to be the only one to do this.
dozing off at
Thursday, October 8, 2009
had lot lots fun...
had lunch with caren jeff and joys!
today was more like a transport day.
it was rather boring but had the fun in the end..
i never know my hands are so itchy even in the public
i'm not the only one...
punggol end at nite really scary not the place to
go at nite
go at niteman tomorrow working shit... so boring.
i swear to god wating for 8 weeks to end i can die.
now is only the 2nd week i think its okay coz tomorrow is thursday...
i swear to god i'll kill myself i have no idea what trigger this cough.
i cough i wake everyone up.
wating for next week to come.
i can't wait for it
NEXT WED IS THE BIG DAY!
love must guide me i bet i'm abit dumb and blur... for sex.
dogs o_o
oh man husky
i think i'll cry over a dog if he want to get one is okay but 2? 0_o
2 husky? oh man... i still think that 8 weeks is fast. good tho. love it i can spent more time with my syg. now medical check up. i just get over it. see what i get and plus if i get into ns next year i'll be out when i'm 20?
yes 20 very long but don't mind.
but to me the training is stupid its only like 3mths of tough training? and the rest are like what? work for them -_-...
oh man its okay i'll just get over it and think positive and dont even think about counting down for 2 years to end...
oh man nvm.
dozing off at
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
what am i feeling now?
i don't know what i'm feeling
it make me really irritated
but... i love this feeling
ever since i'm with jefferey he make me really happy
i don't know how to thank him
he make me so happy that i wish i can be with him everyday
how i wish my parents can be understanding and let me be who i am
i want to be able to voice out
the angle wings
i want to get it done on my back
it mean a lot to me
but i'm born in the family that fall under the group muslim
some time i feel like being alone
but i really pity my mum i do love her i don't know what i'll do with out her
she is everything to me no one can replace my mother she is the best even how much she nags how much i find it noisy she is the best mom in the world. i still think i'm lucky to have such a mum.
but if i do the tattoo i will dissapoint my mum so much.
i don't wish to do that.
i'm very confused with my life now if i continue with my dreams to work with qatar airways i have to leave jefferey i don't want that and if i continue to love him i can't persue my dreams and let my mum leave a luxuary life...
my mum is the most important person in my life if she is not here i don't know what to do...
i don't care about anyone else in my family only my mum...
sometimes i feel like i'm in my own world because i'm always working and schooling i don't know what to do i said i want to be able to be in poly but see what i'm doing with my life now?
i must get into poly even if i have to waste one more year to retake a nitec course.
TP is my choice.
but who know..
dozing off at
