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Tuesday, June 23, 2009

hey hey hey! suddenly i feel like everyone i need is avoiding me.
what's up people?
are they buzy?
i have no idea. ugh.
i just don't want to be alone.
alone has in i need people to be the ears to my problems.
well i msg my cousin huda... she did not reply the 1st time this happend why? did i do something wrong?
i really don't know why but i've not msg her her asking why. maybe tomorrow.

i watch this movie where 2 real life best friends act together in a flim. selena gomez and demi lavato. i forgotten the name of the movie but it was nice about this princess her father who passed away and left the country for her. and come some idiot trying to rule the country. demi was the princess and selena was like the normal girl and. people call her "bait girl" and her father is a agent who saves princess. who would be jin danger. i know its a typical. 10 year old children movie. but who cares. =P

i've been crazy over my hair! ugh... i wanted it to be str8 but i think for now i let it be curly. somehow i'm starting to like my curly hair.
haha its curly and black =P. it gose with a straw hat and hazel contact lens. haha

guess what i'm trying to download granado back i really want to play i do miss the game. hello who will not it awsome. (i love white!) fauzy foxx random again.

oh just now around 5? i switch on MTV it was the JK Hite which mean japanese and korean hits and guess what song was up! paradise by T-max omg haha Ji Hoo was hot.. LOL... so is Goo jun pyo. LOL... i can't find real food at home i'm sick of penut butter and jelly bread. and my back hurts. and payday is near wooohooo next tuesday. haha


that all for today i'm so bored! wating for granado to finish downloading....

dozing off at Tuesday, June 23, 2009


Monday, June 22, 2009

omg i felt like doing something that i can remember for life.
chasing lights.... haha yan said my pm for msn sound so gay... so i change it.
papper love..... i'm typing random things...
up.... few more mins then i've to get ready for work...


(all those in red are random words)


i don't waste another day. i don't want to live my life this way i'm tired.

lost in my own world. actually there is no such things. like being in my own world. everyone is in the same world its just that how you live your life. i'm just living it wrongly..
omg i gain weight but not that much. but still hate it.

being in my heart we got issues... don't know i should miss you or hate you.

Fauzy Foxx... like being himself but people around him like to stop him from being so...
loves his friends treasure them so much always giving them 100% trust... but i always heard this from my family you cannot trust your friends 100%. but i trust Michelle and Caren 100% they are like the one that i want to share my problems with... i will never know what they are thinking when i'm talking to them.

finally i'm thinking of being str8... suddenly i find bisexual are disgusting....
wow haha what have got into Foxx... but its okay.. but still have small crush on those superstars! haha like Lee min ho.. kim bum... yeah haha. i want to get the nokia e63. maybe when my pay is out i shall save for my contacts lens then when i bought my contact then only i buy the handphone and i have to buy my PE attire. fauzy Foxx loves the colour white so all you people out there pls remember ahh. haha.

ohoh! i went to eat ice cream on saturday! the cold rock ice cream.its nice. chocolate was not really my fav. but its nice. i feel like going back in time and be in secondary school. somehow it do suck.

ss501 the wonder boy band. haha.

that all for today =P

dozing off at Monday, June 22, 2009


Thursday, June 18, 2009

i really got nothing to say...


what is the use if you love someone but you just don't get it back?
only thing that will happend is you will feel crushed...
maybe you might break down.
if the person is evil enough he/she might play pranks on you.
what a bitch i know.

i still have not find out who i really am.
how do you even find out who you really are? gosh
blank love letter? the love should change to hate. or maybe death. haha
white white white white white white white white white white white white
i just love white it project other colours...
i wanna try be a bitch... see how others feel? just like maryse? haha
that bitch is hot.


lets see my secondary school family tree


[subashini michelle] my one and only best friend. yr the best out off all =P you don't btich around or back stab.... but i d k how you feel about me beeing yr best friend....

[Nisa] haha i still remember the very few last moments of our sec school life... we had a lot of fun yr the best nisa

[amyra] the only girl who is always up to date in music.
[atika] the girl who i treat her as my talking friend...
[fadilah] i do miss this bitch where is she now since she is not schooling
[natasha] idk her so fake with all the make up and all ugh...
[adredna] well this girl who cares she so different
[bernice] maybe still the same outgoing girl
[shera] now a nurse? haha
[eunice] well we do see each other since our class is just side by side but we don't really talk like usual




okay i'm so bored...

dozing off at Thursday, June 18, 2009


omg it is a freaking tiring day.
went work was alright untill!!! wth... need to wash the freaking oven!
i did wash but only 1 this coming sunday i'm working so i have to wash the top oven.. i need a break. gosh payday is like 10 more days away. i want my pay so i can go shopping.... which i want to... haha i want that green top which look like yellow.. i love that top!!! love it!!! hmmm.... i get my mp4 back i updated the version its so cool its like a bling bling the theme... hmm that all for today. i'm so bored. i want to rest for now..

dozing off at Thursday, June 18, 2009


fucking hell!! my mother is really noisy i can't stand her. she is so noisy!!! who ask her to work if she can't even cope with house work???? who ask her to work???? nobody she want to work so its her problem!! and i'm just a normal teen? why the fuck i must do all the house work?? and she want to comment if i were to work i would mess up?? what kind of mother would say that? NOBODYS ASK YOU TO WORK! WHEN YOU CAN'T COPE WITH HOUSE WORK DON'T BLAME YOUR CHILDREN WE ARE SICK AND TIRED OF YOU TALKING! AND YOU SAID IF DON'T WANT YOU TO BE ANGRY DO THE HOUSE WORK WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT! WE DID OUR CHORES YOU STILL NAG SAYING THAT I NEVER DID THE FUCKING CHORES! TELL ME WHO WON'T GET MAD? WHAT THE FUCK I DID WRONG? MY LIFE IS SO FUCKING MESS UP! I HATE MY LIFE! MY PARENTS ARE NEVER UNDERSTANDING!


MY MOTHER : SHE LIKE TO NAG SO NOISY OVER THE FUCKING CHORES! WHAT IS IT TO NAG ABOUT IT FUCKING IRRITATING!


MY FATHER : HE JUST SEMM LIKE NOT TO FUCKING CARE ABOUT US


AS YOU CAN SEE I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE! WHAT IS GO GREAT ABOUT A FREAKING TEEN I WORK SO THAT I CAN EARN EXTRA MONEY TO DRESS MYSELF PROPERLY! AND WHAT MY MAMA WOULD SAY IS THIS " OH MY FRIENDS CHILD IS WORKING AT MAC EARN LESSER THAN YOU BUT STILL GIVE HIS MOM MONEY!" FUCK TO THAT BOY/GIRL WHO DID THAT. I HAD ENOUGH IT IS LIKE ON THE TOP! SERIOUSLY BOILING! I AM SO LUCKY THAT I AM WORKING MORNING TOMORROWI HAD IT WITH MY LIFE I'M STUCK IN THIS INPERFECT FUCKING BODY.....


at least i still have my friends i love you guys a lot....

that all for today fuck hell i'm born to this family ugh!

dozing off at Thursday, June 18, 2009


Wednesday, June 17, 2009

i'm wating for sat.

another cousin day out with my beloved nabilah huda.

we will be hunting ice-cream. yummy yummy.

i really want to try the cold rock ice cream. they have a website.

http://www.coldrock.com.sg/

that is the only ice-cream shop i will be hunting on that day the others i will just buy small cup for the other shops that we will be going.

thinking about ice-cream i'm thinking about clothing. i really need to buy some new clothing have 2. i am very sure i'll be getting the topman top... =P
the pink is bright but i still like the green












dozing off at Wednesday, June 17, 2009


Tuesday, June 16, 2009

i've woken up once again.
glad that i did but some how not that happy also.
the sun is up but i'm wating for braking dawn.
i want to sleep foever.
if i only could

be back around 5.
my headphone is spoilt and i must sent for repair asap or it will become a toy for my little brother.


that all for now.

dozing off at Tuesday, June 16, 2009


i don't know....
i want to open up.
can i open up?
maybe not yet.
but i wish i could.

why ii want to open up?
i don't want to be what i am now.
i never choose what i am now.
i want to change.
haha but how like 100yrs will it happend?

i'm still finding something that is missing but i don't know what it is?
there is this something that i've been finding but i don't know what it is.
its something like love but i don't think its love.
what can it be?

i act like i don't care but actually i do like crazy.
i cared so much that my emotions is going wild.
i don't know who will be there for me in the future.
i don't think i want to search right now.
but i can't wait its breaking me apart.
i need nisa now or maybe michelle.
i need you guys now

my school life have been rather boring.
i don't enjoy them like primary school.
i like primary school we don't care about look , things , brand new items and stuff.

all we care was playing with friends get scolding from our parent for not doing homework and also not learing spelling.
i don't know why i grow up so fast i can remember my primary school life like it was yesterday.

i miss the days that i don't care about my status.... single....
i miss the days that i don't know i'm bisexual.....
i want those days back i don't want my current life now...

i'm really ashame... i feel like wearing a mask.


well the colour white do make me feel so calm and happy yet sad.
it really makes me.....me.

when i get push i don't react now.
oush me harder i remain as i am...
push me to far you will see wrath in me....

the 3 colour in my life is white red and yellow.

dozing off at Tuesday, June 16, 2009


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

fucking hell i'm so bored. i want to go work lahhh!!! so dam bored maybe i should go k box with my friends =P sing and sing like crazy?? hmmm i was thinking what to do with my money? maybe i should just save it. don't spent coz it just seem i don't really need anything right now.
maybe 2-4 things i have been wanting for so long i have not gotten then i should get it then....

i found a freaking nice song

jazzy - remote control me

today its tuesday so bored i really got nothing to do all i remember is that i have to learn the gift items. -_- right now i only remember
canister 115gram
square bear 120grams
round bear 100grams
small heart 90grams
medium heart 190grams
and the large round tin is 680grams?

the rest is still on the go of learning just hope during the holiday season i'm doing droping and rolling i don't want entertain the customers haha =P

dozing off at Tuesday, June 09, 2009


Sunday, June 7, 2009

i know i'm not heartless
i know how it feels to be dump
i know how hurt it will be when the other party want to move on and you don't

i don't know what the other party is thinking
i don't know if the other party have plan to leave me
i don't know if the other party have been keeping something in the party's heart

i will never know the person true colour.
i will never try to win back the party's love
i will never look back to the memories that i have with the party

i would cry if the momories come flasing through me
i would try to avoid all things the party love most
i would make sure i start a new day with tears that makes me happy
i would spent all my money! to forget you.


only thing i would do once is look back at the momories and cry my heart out. move on like it never happend. avoid you that's all i can do.

smile thinking that i'm stupid to get to know you in the first place.



okay i'm just pouring my heart out thats all. today at work i was very hyper i laugh like hell with samisah and yan alot of jokes were made the best joke of the day yan was raped by a lady haha =) that was funny. i want to travel the world but the 1st place i would like to go is korea. it will happend. i want to stay there. hope i can be one of them there =). good nite to all my nuna and my ajussi at famos amos.

dozing off at Sunday, June 07, 2009


Saturday, June 6, 2009


i want this fucking hair again and i will get it again! hell yeah nothing can stop me this time... i would like to get in bed!!! haha using the com untill 3.31am =) not really me =)

dozing off at Saturday, June 06, 2009


okay i've not been bloging for like 2days man! Y? because i put my laptop at places where it should not be. but i got it back.


what i've done lets see nothing much really all i do was to go to work. and have fun and also haha aim for things i want to buy suddendly i have the feel to buy this freaking cool cam its the old type where u snap and the picture produce on the spot.


i'm hook on korean songs now and i don't even know any new english song so please my friends don't ask me. LEE MIN HO! yr song is dam nice can made me cry haha....
(see post below u know what i mean)

i'm bored and now i'm so broke. really broke there are so many things i want to buy

straw hat $39.90-$49.90
top $70
bermuda $40
shoes $99
designer bags (backpacks) the gucci backpack is nice! not sure
polaroid camera $100-$200


all this i will buy ahhh! will

dozing off at Saturday, June 06, 2009


Tuesday, June 2, 2009



don't the cartoon form look the same as the cast hahaha =) okay lah u can call me crazy ass. you can't stop me. lucky they never force kim bum and kim joon dye brown they will look hmmm. BAD! haha

dozing off at Tuesday, June 02, 2009


goshhhh!!! i want this phone! its dam cool. when the hell is it going to be in singapore... maybe never
sob look Kim Hyun Joong have that phone =(
the whole cast of BOF have that phone. this phone better be in singapore or a lot of singaporean will be broken hearted.
ONE OF THEM IS ME
. samsung in korea! quick sell it in singapore.
hehehe =) pray hard it do comeout here.



dozing off at Tuesday, June 02, 2009


Older Woman - 아주머니 - ajumni (aunt) [Polite]

Older Woman - 아줌마 - ajumma (auntie) [Less Polite]

Older Man - 아저씨 - ajussi (Uncle)

Elderly Woman - 할머니 - hal muh ni (Grandmother) [Polite]

Elderly Man - 할아버지 - hara buh ji (Grandpa) [Less Polite]

Father - 아버지 - ah buh ji

Father in law - 시아버지 - shi ah buh ji

Father in law - 장인어른 - jang in uh reun

Dad - 아빠 - appa [Informal]

Mum - 엄마 - umma

Mother - 어머니 - uh muh ni

Mother in law - 시어머니 - shi uh muh ni

Mother in law - 장모님 - jang mo nim


Siblings - 손위 형제 자매

Older Sister - 언니 - unni (If the speaker is female)


Older Brother - 오빠 - oppa (If the speaker is female)

Older Sister - 누나 - nuna (If the speaker is male)

Older Brother - 형 - hyung (If the speaker is male)

Younger Sibling - 동생 - dong saeng (Regardless of speaker's gender)

dozing off at Tuesday, June 02, 2009


well this song really touched deep inside me. its really nice. haha if you don't understand korean read the english translation.

haha I CRIED i can't believe it. the song remind me a lot of things but. i really don't want to remember all those things.

Its impossible for me to express
with the words of this earth
This overwhelming feeling
I keep on having for you
Its impossible to fathom
with the springs of this world
The endless love
that continues to grow


There is nobody in the world
that makes me smile and cry like you do
Its not like me at all but


I want to live watching you, hearing you
I want to have you live within my heart
Look at me, Come into my arms
Youre my every, my everything
Youre my everything
Love for you


Ive never won against you
But I become happier
The more I lose against love
There is no expiration date on my love
Even if there was the expiration date is never
Stay with me even though it isnt easy
Even if I forget everything elseIll protect you


I only want to live watching you, hearing you
I want to have you live within my heart
Look at me, come into my arms
Youre my every, my everything
Youre my everything
Love for you(I wanna be your everything)You are the true owner of my heart
My first and my last
I call for you with every breath
Youre my every, my everything
Youre my everything
Love for you


I love you youre my everything




okay i have to stop crying over a song lah! haha

dozing off at Tuesday, June 02, 2009


Monday, June 1, 2009

i wanted to buy bubble tea for my sis and that lady ignore me like i'm not there. ii hate punggol plaza there is nothing good there useless place the service there also no good need to put all staff to a retail course laa don't know to value customer is it. nvm being angry is stupid

T-MAX
i like them
haha the song blooming is nice ^^ blew my heart away. ^^
haha tomorrow korean lesson!!! 7pm be there.

dozing off at Monday, June 01, 2009































dozing off at Monday, June 01, 2009



haha okay now i'm at the library. fun or not idk =) now i'm with caren beside me. plus that muni going crazy. asking for photocopy my notes for her haha i did not know it will be full of people.


we went lunch at pizza hut again. i ate the bake rice pasta it taste average okay i have to control my diet i think i gain at least 9kg? i want to lose weight but not going on a crash diet again that suck. i want to go to the beach. i'm bored. any one got any other korean drama? to let me watch =)
in the picture Muni , caren , fauzy

dozing off at Monday, June 01, 2009


okay i don't understand i just woke up and i'm feeling sad already. i'm in love with the song sang by DBSK i really got noting to do in the morning haha. omg what a mess fauzy! just wake up and using the com -_- i'm bored any random people

"who is korean or like korean dramas and songs"

reading this add me at msn nobodysparadise@live.com cyas i would like to get into the showers now study for my reo and go to school and oh oh i bought new shoe for school to me its ugly but unique ^^



dozing off at Monday, June 01, 2009




ok just now i went to work and jenny my manager was there at 1st i was scared with her now nothing lah she not scary. ohhh and jennifer want to quit. because she is in 3rd year poly. i was really bored just now at work i was singing nobody by wonder girls the whole time. Li ting in the other hand like to disturb yan haha. she was like "eh babi, babi, babi, BABI." haha it was funny and i saw this girl she dress like those barbie doll but she is walking at compass point if she were to walk at orchard i understand. haha jenny was like "that girl cute uh" and i laugh. i'm bored sehhh now.... how i wish i can meet the cast of boys over flowers now. the 1st thing i would do is scream and hug the girl who act as guem jandi. jump up and down if i get to see the guy who act as ji hoo. the rest i'm not that intrested even jun pyo. haha

dozing off at Monday, June 01, 2009


BOKU WA
... Foxx is 17 this year Working At the Famous shop =P Famous Amos Have good good friends List of Good Friends i have Michelle (secondary Bestie) Caren (ITE bestie) Rosabelle (Fun Wild Cat) Sally (MY Weight watcher) Munirah (ITE Bestie my Gossip Friend & reporter if any 1 talk bad about me) Aaron (PMS GUY) Guna (Maryse Lover) Vincent Ling ("malay guy") Hamirul! (Only malay guy that is kind to me) Jonathan Ng (Msn guy not in school most of the time)


Friends
Michelle
Adredna

Credits
ukyogalz





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