Tuesday, June 16, 2009

i don't know....
i want to open up.
can i open up?
maybe not yet.
but i wish i could.

why ii want to open up?
i don't want to be what i am now.
i never choose what i am now.
i want to change.
haha but how like 100yrs will it happend?

i'm still finding something that is missing but i don't know what it is?
there is this something that i've been finding but i don't know what it is.
its something like love but i don't think its love.
what can it be?

i act like i don't care but actually i do like crazy.
i cared so much that my emotions is going wild.
i don't know who will be there for me in the future.
i don't think i want to search right now.
but i can't wait its breaking me apart.
i need nisa now or maybe michelle.
i need you guys now

my school life have been rather boring.
i don't enjoy them like primary school.
i like primary school we don't care about look , things , brand new items and stuff.

all we care was playing with friends get scolding from our parent for not doing homework and also not learing spelling.
i don't know why i grow up so fast i can remember my primary school life like it was yesterday.

i miss the days that i don't care about my status.... single....
i miss the days that i don't know i'm bisexual.....
i want those days back i don't want my current life now...

i'm really ashame... i feel like wearing a mask.


well the colour white do make me feel so calm and happy yet sad.
it really makes me.....me.

when i get push i don't react now.
oush me harder i remain as i am...
push me to far you will see wrath in me....

the 3 colour in my life is white red and yellow.

dozing off at Tuesday, June 16, 2009