Wednesday, October 7, 2009

what am i feeling now?
i don't know what i'm feeling
it make me really irritated
but... i love this feeling
ever since i'm with jefferey he make me really happy
i don't know how to thank him

he make me so happy that i wish i can be with him everyday
how i wish my parents can be understanding and let me be who i am
i want to be able to voice out

the angle wings
i want to get it done on my back
it mean a lot to me
but i'm born in the family that fall under the group muslim
some time i feel like being alone
but i really pity my mum i do love her i don't know what i'll do with out her
she is everything to me no one can replace my mother she is the best even how much she nags how much i find it noisy she is the best mom in the world. i still think i'm lucky to have such a mum.

but if i do the tattoo i will dissapoint my mum so much.
i don't wish to do that.
i'm very confused with my life now if i continue with my dreams to work with qatar airways i have to leave jefferey i don't want that and if i continue to love him i can't persue my dreams and let my mum leave a luxuary life...

my mum is the most important person in my life if she is not here i don't know what to do...

i don't care about anyone else in my family only my mum...

sometimes i feel like i'm in my own world because i'm always working and schooling i don't know what to do i said i want to be able to be in poly but see what i'm doing with my life now?

i must get into poly even if i have to waste one more year to retake a nitec course.
TP is my choice.
but who know..

dozing off at Wednesday, October 07, 2009